Living Your Life to The "Fullest"

Time. Time is such a big deal and people make it out to be such a big deal. 

I mean yeah, time isn't endless and seconds tick away and hours and months go by and time is something you can't get back once you spend it. Bottom line, it's a limited resource. 

I somewhat agree to things like, "treat every second like it's your last", "time is valuable so make the most of your life", "spend every minute of your life doing what you love doing". 

Blah blah blah. 

Let me give a run through about my life. I'm busy. I'm busy as all hell. I don't even know how I have the time to be writing this right now, but I guess I have a few minutes to catch my breath. 

I'm a resident assistant, I'm a teachers assistant, I'm a tutor and I tutor three students. I'm a biology major at college. I'm taking organic chem, physics, ecology, and some bullshit philosophy class that I thought would be a nice blow off class but it turns out it's not. Between running in between classes, never having time to eat more than a meal and a half a day, yelling at 30 freshman to shut up in the middle of the night so I can sleep, and having a boyfriend (we're almost at our one year anniversary - yay!) I barely find enough time to see other people I care about. 

This year at college has turned out to be one of my loneliest. I'm around people 24/7 and I must interact with over 30+ people a day - yet I'm pretty alone. I have about two friends that I consider my life long friends that I found, got to know, and now will have for the rest of my life and unfortunately I barely get to see them. 

It sucks.

They have their own busy life and I have mine and our schedules clash so hard and I'm lucky to catch them walking from class to class. 

So back to time and all that nonsense. 

How the hell am I supposed to make the every moment when I spend most of my days too busy to even think? Believe me, I would LOVE to be one of those people that find the best in everything, and I do try to be that person! If something bad happens I try to see the best in the situation. But how am I "supposed to live every second" likes its my last when I spend about 9+ hours a day working? 

Maybe there will be a time when I'll work a 9-5 every day at a job I love and I'll have a wonderful husband and kids to go home to and those are the days where I can try to soak in every wonderful second of life. Maybe not - i'll probably be busy then. 

I definitely think it's good to step back sometimes and look at the life you have and the life you've been given and the life you live. I think everyone should appreciate what they have and the opportunities that are presented to them - big and small. I think it's good to hike a mountain and to not take a picture of the view or the people your with. I think it's good to just sit back and appreciate where you are and what you just did (lots of people can't hike). 

Don't get me confused though, I'm not that hippie person that's like "phones are destroying civilization and people skins maaaan". I know plenty of people that have their phones and use it avidly and still stay attached to civilization. I put my phone away at dinners and when I'm around family or in meetings and things like that and I'll actually not be on my phone when I'm waiting for something - I like people watching, it's kinda funny. 

Anyway, even in my daily, hectic life, I still find time to take a step back and take a deep breath in. I made time to do yoga to ground myself and take time to just breath (I swear I'm not a hippie, earth loving freak) and it's really helpful to no focus on anything and to leave all of my troubles, worries, and frustration outside of my mat. 


Sometimes taking a deep breath every couple times a day is what people need. It's good for you. You enrich blood cells with oxygen, you have a split second to clear your head and you have a moment just for you. 

Sure, time is irreplaceable and we're only given so much, but I don't think you have to spend every second trying to live it to the fullest, I think you just have to spend a crucial couple seconds a day and to just try to smile and be happy with who you are and where you are and what you're doing. As long as you're happy, with no matter how hectic your life may be, everything you're doing is worth it in the end. 

You just have to go through a lot of shit to get to where you want to go. But once you get there, oh man. 

It's a whole new world.